HAPPY HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!

HAPPY HAPPY GOBBLE GOBBLE DAY!!!

I LOVE TO EAT

SO I LOVE THANKSGIVING

GO STUFF YOURSELF LIKE A TURKEY

AND GET FAT LIKE A BIG DORKY

MUNCH MUNCH MUNCH

EAT EAT EAT

YUM YUM YUM

HAPPY HAPPY TURKEY DAY!! =]

i miss you baby boo.... =(

................... GYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nanka shiran kedo... sugoi iikoto ga okorimashita!!!!! maji oober happy desuyo!!! jitsuwa...

SHITSUREN SHITEMASEN DESHITA!!!!! maji bikkuri!!! LoL. kinou no are ha nandattanda tte kanji. haha. demo kinou ha honto ni dame ato omottadesuyo. demo kyou jitsu ha puchi kokuri sarechai mashita!!!!! =]

nanka konna happy na post hisashiburi ja nai? teka hajimete ja nai? LoL. sugoi waku waku doki doki desuyo~... maji iwareta ato hontouni ochitsuki nakatta kara. LoL. hotnouni dousureba iika wakarankatta. sugoi konran!! haha. but ya. ureshiidesune. jissai. yappari. =]

demo mada hontouni suki ka wakannai kara... mosihkashitara oniichan kei de tayoreru hito kamo shirenaikara... de moshi sou nara kizutsuketakunaikara... dakara otameshi kikan ni shimashita. =] suki tte iwareta toki chanto hontou ni suki nanoka, moshikuwa tayoreru sonzai nanika ima konran shiterukara otameshi kikan de onegaishimasu. tekina koto iimashita. =] demo mukou ha nanka warui hou ni totte shimatta rashikute... kanashinde masune... demo atashi ha maemuki ni tte imi dattandakedo... tsutawaranakatta mitai... =/ chanto setsumei shinakya... tte koto de mata aimashou!!!! (^-^)v

jinsei tte umaku ikanai desune.... kyou aratamete omoishirimashitayo.. ha~... shitsuren shiteshimai mashita... nanka... sugoi chikara nekemashita ne... kiga nuketa tteka... nanka... mou nani wo doushitara iika wakaranaku nacchaimashita,,, maji naki desuyo... konogoro jibun tte namida moroku natteru koto ni kizukimashita... dakara kana? soretomo soredake suki datta tte koto?? wakarimasenne... teka moto kara hontou ni suki datta ka tayoreru oniichan teki na sonzai dattanokaga nayandetashi... tomodachi ni iwarete kizuita kedo moshi hontouni suki nara nayamu hitsuyou nainja naissuka?? suki nara suki. sou de nai nara chigau. kantan na koto ja naidesuka... yappa... suki ja nainokana...?? demo, ma, ima to natteha mou doudemo ii koto deshite... ima kangaetemo imiga nai teka.. muda teka... atashi tte nannan darou... nani ga shitaindaro?? nani ga shita kattandaro... nandaka subete ga wakaranaku natte kita.... ma, ima to natte ha doushiyou mo nai kedo ne... igaito damage ookiidesune... omoikondeta kara na~ sukidatte... suki... suki...ne.... sore ga kanchigai to omouto nanka... jibun ga mou wakaranai..... teka miren gamashiina... owattandakara nayamu hitsuyou nai ssune... un... owaridesu.. mou...

sayounara......

ok... well, im over that competition thing... a lil, but since my xanga's been a tad evil these past few days, imma try to lighten things up. =]

so, on sat, i went to jason and jesse's 21st b-day party. HAPPY B-DAY!! twas fun... lots of dancing... sweating... hot... sweaty... jumping... cranking... noise.... in the tail on the donkey.... coraaazyness.... ya... fun... haha =] but i worked int he morning so that was bs... -_- o, but i did accomplish one thing. made randall stay up til past 12am!! LoL.

then on sun, i worked... haha. O!!!! but we watched transformers at work!!!! twas lots of fun. =] evn tho i didnt understand half the movie cuz it was SAOOOO FREAKING LOUD IN THERE!!! Bounce was sooo dead wen i got there and so we plugged the dvd in. and one it started playing, A WHOLE DAMN LINE OF PPL WALK IN!!!! what. the. fuck!! LoL. so im talking orders while trying to watch this movie and so im only half listening to the customer and the movie. then i start making drinks but my hands rnt moving AT ALL cuz im so mezmorized (did i spell that rite??) by the movie. and i mess up on a drink, knock over the shaker and spill strawberry green tea all over the place, and the drinks r talking forever to come out... AOHH MY GAWW!! but it was fun. haha.

ya... that was my wkend... haha. ya.... =l

ok... well..i tried talking to my mom again after yestrday... but seems like im not ganna  b in the fucking competition cuz my mom jus had to ruin everything... this really sucks balls... i actually didnt realize how much i wanted to b in the competition un til my mom left my room after i told her i wouldnt b in it... i litterally started pouring... like crazy.... i thot i would b ok.. like i thot i would just b like ok.. well, its only compeition. ill b ok kinda thing.... but no. my eyes r burning rite now cuz i cried so much...

i seriously dont get why my mom doesnt want me to perfor. ya she gave me all the bullshit answers like its a lot of money (no shit but its not like imma use ur money)..... its not ganna do me any good (well, at least im having fun doing it and its sumthing i really love to do)...... oh! and the most fucking bullshit reason... im a college student.... what the fuck does that have to do with competition. theres a lot of ppl in college that dance... theres ppl who just started dancing in college. what the fuck is her problem? what kind of reason is ur in college. u cant compete.... i mean, its not like im failing in skool, im doing just fine. so what does she care? my fucking god... and she's saying that if i decide to b in competition., im not ganna do well in skool... but i managed all this and more in highskool. and ya i kno college and high skool isnt the same thing blah blah blah. but i kno i can manage my time. if i couldnt, then i wouldnt hav said i wanted to b in the competition cuz its about ME and i would kno if i can handle it or not... i work because my mom told me i have to, i go to college cuz my mom expects me to and thinks its just normal for poeple to go to college after high skool (not evn considering wat I want to do in my life), and pretty much doing everything my mom said i "should" do...

whatever. fuck it. i dont care nemore. how about i jus giv everything to my mom: my money, my belongings,my time, my LIFE... then, mayb she'll b pleased with me. then, mayb she wont b bitching at me all the time about all the "rong" things i do in life and the "rong" decisions i make in life and all that other fucking shit that i do. u kno wat.. just.. fuck her. FUCK MY MOM. and fuck everything else thats going on in my life.. fuck it ALL...

**damn... i didnt kno i was so emo... and had so much anger inside of me... haha. i really need to chill... haha. im scarying myself. =/ o, evn tho i said fuck everything or wat not, this doesnt include me friends. my friends r special so they dont count. haha. i love you~!!!! =]**